Yesterday I had the privilege of watching my baby brother and sister while my mom went to do a clients hair for her wedding. We chowed down on hot dogs, chips, ice cream and chili cheese nachos all day and watched movies. Today as I reflected on yesterday I was taken back to an innocence that once was. I can remember being in high school and having to pick my brother up from preschool and wishing I wasn't driving around with a baby seat in my car, today I could care less. I remembered Ronald being my model for photography class and posing and being his cute baby self. I can remember Elizabeth learning her first signs and trying to hide her hearing aides in her toy bins and me chasing after her. Those are the times I can't get back, those are the memories I hold dear to my heart as I watch them grow into loving and smart teens. Never in a million years did I think that they would grow up , why couldn't they stay babies?.
I have done a lot of soul searching this past year and can't quite figure out what God is trying to tell me or what he wants me to do with my life, but I know there's something out there. I have this deep deep hunger to help the less fortunate and give my time. Maybe I'll find it soon because it's driving me crazy thinking about others I could be helping. I dream of having a simple life and nothing more.
Me and Mike are also desperately trying to find a new church and can't quite find one that suits us. We left our church in January due to some personal issues with a member. I can't get into it but it has really broken my heart and I have been praying about this whole situation and what action my family needs to take. My mom, brother and sister stopped going to our church last August and I just can't seem to grasp the possibility of not being in church with them. So we are on the hunt for a new one that we all can go to. I hate not being in church on some Sundays but I feel that God lead us in the right direction to the church that we will love. I hated leaving our home church but I just couldn't stomach not being with my family and seeing the one member that ultimately drove us away from our church.
Sorry for the "spilling of the beans" but I needed to get that off my chest and as Angie at Angelica Grace Designs says, "keeping it real". I have felt like I have been carrying that burden for awhile and now it is lifted. If you all could please pray for my family that we can find a new church soon that would be awesome and much appreciated. I will tell why we left in due time but now is not the time, but soon. I hope you all had a wonderful holiday weekend!!
Until I blog again ~ Gal Molly